For a short period of time, I lived in a small attic space of my friend's home. I had just graduated college; submitted several applications for jobs, and needed a place to stay while I waited to hear back.
I think about this phase of my life a lot.
My "room" was positioned off of an upstairs "loft" where my friend slept. I want to say it was more of a closet than a bedroom, but the vaulted ceilings made it difficult for either. A plain mattress rested on the floor and was essentially the anchor of the room. It was surrounded by a stack of boxes full of the few possessions I owned. A 13-inch CRT TV resting on top one of the boxes hooked up to a DVD player that could read video files off of DVD-Rs. Nearby, A large stack of DVD-Rs on a spindle full of my ripped movie collection.
I visualize it in two different ways:
- On a sunny mid-afternoon day with dust floating across a sunbeam leaking through the curtains of a nearby window.
- In the darkness of the night, lit entirely by the glow of a CRT TV.
That period of my life feels so far away now, but the memory of it is so vivid - taking up a permanent residence in my mind. The thought of my old friends and how far apart we've grown since then makes me terribly sad. Unfortunately, in my recollection of it I'm always alone. It has become a liminal space, where we've all moved on. And yet, I occasionally get trapped there, waiting on my friends...Logged on November, 28th 2023